Non-Fiction's Grip
Initially, the author's reading life revolved around non-fiction. Works like policy papers, business books, and biographies were favored, all offering
a sense of understanding the world through facts and figures. Bookshelves were neatly organized, representing certainty. The author found comfort in the clarity and direction provided by these non-fiction texts, seeking answers and measurable outcomes from what was read. The author's habit was to extract meaning, constantly seeking to mine books for concrete solutions. This approach, while providing a sense of order, limited the author's willingness to explore ambiguity or delve into the emotional depths offered by more narrative forms.
Fiction's Unveiling
A significant shift occurred when the author encountered Deborah Levy's memoir, which subtly challenged the author's ingrained reading habits. Levy's writing style, characterized by stillness and profound observations, began to erode the author's preference for direct answers. The author realized that fiction's role wasn't to offer solutions, but rather to hold a mirror, reflecting the complexities of human experience. This realization prompted a reevaluation of how the author approached literature, encouraging a willingness to become lost within the narrative, rather than demanding immediate clarity.
Embracing The Fog
The author's shift in perspective was highlighted by a quote from Oscar Wilde, quoted in Levy's memoir: 'Be yourself; everyone else is already taken.' This line, previously dismissed as a clever saying, took on new meaning. It underscored the emotional cost of authenticity, of living truthfully in a world often demanding conformity. The author began to understand that fiction doesn't aim to erase the fog of uncertainty; it teaches readers how to navigate within it. This newfound appreciation for the unspoken, for the emotional undercurrents of storytelling, marked a crucial change in the author's reading habits.
A New Approach
The author's reading practices evolved, adopting a slower, more contemplative approach. Instead of seeking definitive answers, the author started to embrace the ambiguities inherent in fiction. This new approach focused on the emotional impact of the text, on exploring the hidden humanity within narratives. The author recognized the value of getting lost in a story, understanding that this was the purpose of good fiction. Good fiction addresses humanity lost so easily, thus opening the doors to greater understanding. This shift in perspective reflected a broader change, from valuing quantifiable knowledge to embracing the richness of lived experience and the deeper understanding that comes from emotional and empathetic engagement.
